The first phrase is inhibitive to success because it shuts every door that leads to your creativity pockets. The latter phrase however, is one that impels creativity and incites drive.
Since I completed my bachelor’s program, I knew that I wanted to continue to study but everytime I tried to find ways to fulfil that dream, I saw only my inadequacy. I was working in a rural organisation (still am) earning money that couldn’t get me the right kind of program I wanted to get to. As I looked around meeting obstacle after obstacle, I decided to follow this; How can I get there? One of the area’s I want to grow in definitely is management. A postgrad in management was not going to be as hard as a masters in physiotherapy or global health for me.
I decided not to throw in the towel. I couldn’t get a better paying job near the bigger cities where most universities are found. I made a decision that I knew would be very costly in terms of money, time and physical energy. I enrolled for a weekend program in a university about 4-5hours (in public transport ) from where I work. Project planning and management 2019/2020. Unfortunately because of COVID interruptions we only. Imported this year.
The journey was rough. I sometimes didn’t have the money to travel. Sometimes when I got there I didn’t have enough supplies. I missed a few weekends. I had the support of my senior cheerleader , my sweet mother who chipped in when I was very desperate and told her I was completely heard up. My friends supported me too.
The thing is though, it had taken me three years to finally stop looking at all my limitations and simply start. Starting is always the hardest step of any journey. And now for anything that God puts on my heart and that I perceive as a journey that is necessary for my dreams and vision, I want to look around as much as possible for how I can achieve it and not how I can’t.
Icing on the cake y’all: I got a first class diploma. I am definitely doing the Masters in this program once I am settled. I had fears that because I wasn’t close to my classmates who I discussed with weekly and did group work with. Sometimes I felt left behind as they had more time to meet during the week and try to understand work together. I also know that the best way for me to understand things is if I discuss with other people.
Right now, I want to take another leap of faith and ignore the I can’t mentality. I want to start an MBA with the hope that I can work so hard and earn a scholarship and won’t have to pay the money because I don’t have it. I am done waiting for ideal time and ideal situation. The perfect time may never come for us to start going after our dreams. The climate may never be perfect. But now I want to be more proactive and find pathways and possibilities as I make steps towards my dreams.
Be blessed and be a blessing.
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